Battles & Blessings

Battles:

• Week one of Zoloft = dizziness, lightheadedness, nausea, and fatigue.  Week one of Zoloft =/= any real relief, yet.  Blargh.
• Also, the seventh day of Zoloft, the last one before you double the dosage, kinda sucks.  As in, it doesn't really help at all.  Welcome back, panic attacks.
• The weather is crazy - warm, cold, warm, cold.  It's doing a number on my allergies, my stress levels, and my sanity.
• A week of things not turning out the way I planned.  I hate that.
• Insatiable hunger.  May or may not be a side effect of the meds.  Either way, it sucks.
• Long days.  Patrick has an important project to finish, and has been working later than normal.
• Because of my already-high anxiety levels on Friday, I took a bit of e-judging a little more personally than I normally would have.  I wound up hiding my head under a blanket, trying to breathe normally, while Patrick made dinner.  Not one of my shining moments.

Blessings:

• Week one of Zoloft is done.  Which means that I should find some relief soon.  My wait for relief is that much shorter now.
• Even with the crazy weather, I can tell that Spring is here.  It is only a matter of time before warmth graces us again.
• Hidden blessing that would have remained hidden if everything had gone as planned.
• For every tiny piece of e-judging I have received, I have also received great big loads of e-support.  It is awesome that I can count on these people to lift me up after a bad day.
• A son who lights up every room he enters.
• A husband who takes care of me, and shows me nothing but compassion and love.  Even when I am annoying. :)
• Work.  Because it keeps my mind off things.  And because I love my job.  And because it rarely feels like work.
• Play dates.
• Thin Mints.  Mmmm.
• A good book.

Life is good.