It's 4:45 pm and I just ate for the first time today. And it was a bowl of cereal snarfed in less than five minutes while hiding, crouched on the kitchen floor so I didn't have to share it.
It's been that sort of day.
Sam has a cold. Miles is just getting over his. Patrick and I are showing the signs of coming down with it. Sam suddenly stopped sleeping through the night a couple of days ago, so we did, too. Miles is feeling very needy and attention-hungry. Sam only wants to cuddle, and won't nap unless I'm holding her. Miles has decided that naps are for losers. I have literally been "on" for eight hours straight. Every bathroom break was taken at the last possible moment to the sound of screaming. Every time I sat, I was immediately covered in children (and snot and drool). Every time I stood, I carried a cranky baby with me and listened to Miles ask me, once more, to come play trains. I am typing this while Samantha whines next to me, because nothing I can do makes her stop. I have given in and handed Miles my phone to browse YouTube, and he is squeezed in on my other side. Even in this moment of writing, there is no quiet, no release.
I am exhausted, physically, mentally, and emotionally.
Don't offer me platitudes. Don't bother telling me this will all be over soon. I know it will. And days like this will not be missed. I guarantee it.
We will all be okay. We will get through this, and soon. But for right now, it kinda sucks.
So, don't be surprised when I don't answer the phone. I just don't have the energy or the time.